What's It All About?


"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates

While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.

You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.

"Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase." MLK

Sunday, March 15, 2026

Betsy part I

AKA Life w/out Betsy

It’s been days since I’ve driven her. She’s just been sitting in the garage, resting. I’ve been told that she should be put out to pasture, but I’m fighting it hard. She’s been such a good car, probably the best car I’ve ever had, even better than Suzette. Well, maybe it’s a tie between Betsy and Suzette. I’ve had them about the same amount of time and the work that they needed was kind of similar actually from a financial standpoint…so OK so that’s also reminding me that I’ve survived this before. I’ll survive it again. 


There’s a new car for me out there to love and to take good care of me and family while we drive around town getting back-and-forth to school and work and errands and not being trapped here at home …though it’s kind of a nice trap sometimes ….but it’s also been really great for us to have two cars  —— helps a lot when there’s a kid in the mix. 


And part of the reason I’m gaining weight back is that I’m not doing any of the physical activity I was when driving’s  I need that stair workout, it helps! 


     I really hope this new med works and the side effects are less terrible! 


So here we are halfway through March and the job at Opportunity Partners didn’t work out and I’m back to a just one, this unpaid leave from Dragonfly …


I’m supposed to be getting the first check any day now…though yeah I was totally right frame in my head in quotes “check is in the mail” …quotes being the code for - ha ha you’ll be lucky if you get it! 


And there’s supposed to be more eventually.


In the meantime, need to find a new job -  companion, not caregiver. 


Need to find a new car,


I need to get back on infusions (which means first I need to pay off my co-pay past due balance) which means I need to get some money, real money cause 

I also need to pay the March mortgage and the March HOA fee…


*sigh* 


so that’s the state of Sam at this particular moment in time.


And it’s HIS birthday tomorrow. And for the first time ever (or at least in over a decade) I’m not prepared at all and it’s the day before and what the fuck am I gonna do???? 


So it’s either gonna be (thank God for) DoorDash and delivery cause I could find a card and something and have it delivered tomorrow (not asking for today while there’s a blizzard going on…not without giving a super big tip which would eat into the funds I have) …


Hmmm so now to think about or research….go the traditional route or do a birthday post here in the blog…


Share my thoughts and feelings about his being born with the world this time instead of just keeping between us. 


Speaking of that, somebody recently asked how many people read it and I said I don’t know …but that there was somewhere I could look …from the last time I looked I have more than just one reader and so if you are one of the people reading this, well thank you! ♥️♥️ 


I know I don’t post a whole lot but what is posted feels important enough to me that I want it to be documented and ….

And who are we kidding, it’s also another way of “hearing” myself talk about me 😂😂😂😂


But seriously, I just need a place to express myself and do another thing I love, which is writing. 


Before I stop for today, question…to have more coffee or not?? My home cold brew concoctions are really quite tasty.


Onward and upwards. 

Noire

Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!

Things I'm grateful for everyday....

- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)

Current Favorite Quotes

“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"
Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain

(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)

7-25-07

1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.

Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)

  • 1. No one can bring your life to you
  • 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
  • 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
  • 4. Every choice means giving up something different
  • 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
  • 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
  • 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
  • 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
  • 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them