Two months ago, before the move, I thought to myself that I didn't know if I'd be able to deal with the move and that change in my life.
Thankfully I came out on the other side with most of my sanity intact.
I finally had a physical last Thursday and it was the kind of the physical that got me thinking about things again in terms of my physical self. But I guess that's fairly common isn't it? Spend a little time putting the magnifying glass on a certain aspect of yourself and give it some much overdue attention.
So yeah...this body.
*Sigh*
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Ramblings in the wee small hours
Well actually it's only 2am. I should be thinking of winding things down -especially after the disaster going to bed last night was. Lights out at 3am and I didn't fall asleep 'til around 5...5:30! I was NOT a happy camper about that. Especially since I'm trying to get over the first cold I've had in god knows how long. (Taking a daily vitamin WORKS when you actually take the bloody thing DAILY!)
Oh what an exciting couple of weeks it's been.
* Court date #2 last week - got myself a public defender and thank god because the prosecutor wanted/wants to suspend my driver's license. Now granted, I did the crime but I've made good! And I'll never do it again! And I will prove to them that I have car insurance as often as they want for as long as they want! So there is yet another day to go back to court. Let's hope it's the last time. (Worst case scenario they do suspend it but maybe I get a "work" one only? And it would only be for 6 months? The PD thinks it really shouldn't come down to that though....please please let him be right!)
* Pop lost his job. They let him go. Supposedly trumped up charges of some sort and they've been gunning for him for awhile and finally had their ammunition. He's understandably angry and bitter. I just hope he does find some part-time work ...shit, I keep forgetting to see if the airline has anything for him!... and that along with the social security he can now apply for, they should be OK and not have to move (again) to more affordable housing. They have the nicest place they've ever had and moving is so stressful.
* Hmmm, still thinking about running off to Nice for a few days but we'll just have to see how it goes. I'll find out my new shifts tomorrow and I'll have to see how it all could work with the budget. Missing a couple days of work this week didn't help since I'm officially out of sick time until next month. Oh well. It's all about keeping my expenses down to a minimum. The cell phone is back under control and that's big.
And if Troy would both give me some other work AND pay me for the last job I did for him, that will help. Granted, I need to get my shit together and find a better way to organize the lists he sends me and make sure I don't delete ANY of the emails! I'm feeling like an idiot because I couldn't give him some information he asked for the other day (I'm also feeling afraid that with how long it took me to do the last one, combined with that I'm not following through with sending back a final list of who got what, that he's going to think he's made a mistake in asking me to help him with this stuff. Oh well. I can only wait and see if he gives me any more work. I hope he does or I need to make sure he gets all of his supplies back so they aren't just laying around taking up space (or maybe one of these days I'll actually organize them properly!))
*Sigh*
* Have a doctor appointment day after tomorrow at fucking o'dark early (or whatever you call it when it's the middle of the night for a night owl like me) I will be tempted to just stay up all night but that staying up all hours of the "night" crap is what contributes to my getting a cold. I will also be tempted to cancel but it's for a physical and to get a new refill for the "happy" pills so I guess I better just get my ass up early. Right-o.
* On a happier note, the new living situation is going well. We're settling in and getting used to each other lifestyles, schedules and routines. I am really happy I'm here and I hope Ryan is too.
* My dearest old friend Diane turned 40 this past weekend and I'm really happy for her. She may be worried about that big 4-0 like the rest of us but it's actually really not so bad...so far.
Well, I think that's all I'll get into tonight.
Onward. Just...onward.
Oh what an exciting couple of weeks it's been.
* Court date #2 last week - got myself a public defender and thank god because the prosecutor wanted/wants to suspend my driver's license. Now granted, I did the crime but I've made good! And I'll never do it again! And I will prove to them that I have car insurance as often as they want for as long as they want! So there is yet another day to go back to court. Let's hope it's the last time. (Worst case scenario they do suspend it but maybe I get a "work" one only? And it would only be for 6 months? The PD thinks it really shouldn't come down to that though....please please let him be right!)
* Pop lost his job. They let him go. Supposedly trumped up charges of some sort and they've been gunning for him for awhile and finally had their ammunition. He's understandably angry and bitter. I just hope he does find some part-time work ...shit, I keep forgetting to see if the airline has anything for him!... and that along with the social security he can now apply for, they should be OK and not have to move (again) to more affordable housing. They have the nicest place they've ever had and moving is so stressful.
* Hmmm, still thinking about running off to Nice for a few days but we'll just have to see how it goes. I'll find out my new shifts tomorrow and I'll have to see how it all could work with the budget. Missing a couple days of work this week didn't help since I'm officially out of sick time until next month. Oh well. It's all about keeping my expenses down to a minimum. The cell phone is back under control and that's big.
And if Troy would both give me some other work AND pay me for the last job I did for him, that will help. Granted, I need to get my shit together and find a better way to organize the lists he sends me and make sure I don't delete ANY of the emails! I'm feeling like an idiot because I couldn't give him some information he asked for the other day (I'm also feeling afraid that with how long it took me to do the last one, combined with that I'm not following through with sending back a final list of who got what, that he's going to think he's made a mistake in asking me to help him with this stuff. Oh well. I can only wait and see if he gives me any more work. I hope he does or I need to make sure he gets all of his supplies back so they aren't just laying around taking up space (or maybe one of these days I'll actually organize them properly!))
*Sigh*
* Have a doctor appointment day after tomorrow at fucking o'dark early (or whatever you call it when it's the middle of the night for a night owl like me) I will be tempted to just stay up all night but that staying up all hours of the "night" crap is what contributes to my getting a cold. I will also be tempted to cancel but it's for a physical and to get a new refill for the "happy" pills so I guess I better just get my ass up early. Right-o.
* On a happier note, the new living situation is going well. We're settling in and getting used to each other lifestyles, schedules and routines. I am really happy I'm here and I hope Ryan is too.
* My dearest old friend Diane turned 40 this past weekend and I'm really happy for her. She may be worried about that big 4-0 like the rest of us but it's actually really not so bad...so far.
Well, I think that's all I'll get into tonight.
Onward. Just...onward.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Well France is pretty close to Italy
LEO (July 23-Aug. 22): No other country on the planet has a greater concentration of artistic masterpieces than Italy. As for the place that has the most natural wonders and inspiring scenery per square mile: That's more subjective, but I'd say Hawaii. Judging from the astrological omens, Leo, I encourage you to visit one or both of those two hotspots -- or the closest equivalents you can manage. (If you already live in Italy or Hawaii, you won't have far to go.) In my opinion, you need to be massively exposed to huge doses of staggering beauty. And I really do mean that you NEED this experience -- for your mental, physical, and spiritual well-being.
and because it's also appropriate and I LIKE it...
CANCER (June 21-July 22): If you were a poker player, the odds would now be far better than usual that you'd be voted one of the "50 Sexiest Poker Players in the World." If you were a physician volunteering your services in Haiti or Sudan, there'd be an unusually high likelihood that you'd soon be the focus of a feature story on a TV news show. And even if you were just a pet groomer or life coach or yoga teacher, I bet your cachet would be rising. Why? According to my reading of the omens, you Cancerians are about to be noticed, seen for who you are, or just plain appreciated a lot more than usual.
☯ ♥
See the thing is I have an opportunity to stay in a place in Nice, France, for FREE. I got the offer from a woman I helped on the phone awhile back and I recently confirmed with her that the offer still stands. It does!!!
I seriously need to get away. Need to fly and become the person on the other side of the phone again. How can I not take advantage of this opportunity being presented to me right? So now I'm going to go do some reading on Nice and look up this place on Google Maps....
And then I really think I'm going to try to make it happen...next month. We're bidding for our next shift in a couple of weeks and until I know what I know what my new schedule will be, Regardless of what my schedule will be, I know I'm going to have to be willing to trade shifts. :( (I don't like doing that because it messes up my "routine" and I function best with routine.) But I'm desperate for an adventure so I'm eager to be able to put the exact dates on the calendar. Juggling the work schedule be damned! And then somehow, someway, I'll make it work and do it within my budget. I won't need much...mostly just money in case something goes wrong trying to get home!
☯ ♥
B was out of town for almost 2 weeks and is finally back and I'm so happy. We only saw each other a couple of times in March and I started to doubt (again) whether or not I could handle staying in the relationship with how there are these "periods" of little physical contact (his annual family vacation and the holidays) but just talking to him last night reaffirmed that I am in this 100%. We had a good conversation. I'm so completely in love with this man. I know he loves me too. I love that he has "stuck around" as long as he has in my life. He also knows how lucky he is to have me in his.
Ah, relationships though right? Up and downs but continuing to communicate and each wanting to be with and make the other person happy.
There is a date planned for Thursday. I can't wait. I might even dress up. I have been a little ...careless with my appearance lately (er, the last few years) and it's about time I started enjoying some of my nicer clothes again and maybe throw a little bit of make-up on occasionally and get my fucking hair cut again already!
Anyhoo...time to go do that research on Nice...
Onward (oh how that makes me miss the Fabulous...)
and because it's also appropriate and I LIKE it...
CANCER (June 21-July 22): If you were a poker player, the odds would now be far better than usual that you'd be voted one of the "50 Sexiest Poker Players in the World." If you were a physician volunteering your services in Haiti or Sudan, there'd be an unusually high likelihood that you'd soon be the focus of a feature story on a TV news show. And even if you were just a pet groomer or life coach or yoga teacher, I bet your cachet would be rising. Why? According to my reading of the omens, you Cancerians are about to be noticed, seen for who you are, or just plain appreciated a lot more than usual.
☯ ♥
See the thing is I have an opportunity to stay in a place in Nice, France, for FREE. I got the offer from a woman I helped on the phone awhile back and I recently confirmed with her that the offer still stands. It does!!!
I seriously need to get away. Need to fly and become the person on the other side of the phone again. How can I not take advantage of this opportunity being presented to me right? So now I'm going to go do some reading on Nice and look up this place on Google Maps....
And then I really think I'm going to try to make it happen...next month. We're bidding for our next shift in a couple of weeks and until I know what I know what my new schedule will be, Regardless of what my schedule will be, I know I'm going to have to be willing to trade shifts. :( (I don't like doing that because it messes up my "routine" and I function best with routine.) But I'm desperate for an adventure so I'm eager to be able to put the exact dates on the calendar. Juggling the work schedule be damned! And then somehow, someway, I'll make it work and do it within my budget. I won't need much...mostly just money in case something goes wrong trying to get home!
☯ ♥
B was out of town for almost 2 weeks and is finally back and I'm so happy. We only saw each other a couple of times in March and I started to doubt (again) whether or not I could handle staying in the relationship with how there are these "periods" of little physical contact (his annual family vacation and the holidays) but just talking to him last night reaffirmed that I am in this 100%. We had a good conversation. I'm so completely in love with this man. I know he loves me too. I love that he has "stuck around" as long as he has in my life. He also knows how lucky he is to have me in his.
Ah, relationships though right? Up and downs but continuing to communicate and each wanting to be with and make the other person happy.
There is a date planned for Thursday. I can't wait. I might even dress up. I have been a little ...careless with my appearance lately (er, the last few years) and it's about time I started enjoying some of my nicer clothes again and maybe throw a little bit of make-up on occasionally and get my fucking hair cut again already!
Anyhoo...time to go do that research on Nice...
Onward (oh how that makes me miss the Fabulous...)
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