Happy 1-Month Anniversary O and V

1 month ago today, my life changed for the better when they moved in. 

Yesterday was one of the toughest days I've had recently and my future with Capella is now uncertain. 

D and K just didn't feel like they could approach me directly and tell me that something I said felt inappropriate to them. 

I took it very badly and V was here to give me a hug and offer their support. Then later, when O got home from work and heard about it, was pissed about how I'm being treated and offering her support as well. 

I didn't know I needed them until I got them. 

Not being alone when going through something awful is everything. 

and on a lighter note, V is going to help me find the scammer who dares to mess with me and we're going to find some way to bust them. 

This is it for now. 

Almost 1 Month In - The O and V stories

They've been here almost a month now and today is the first time since they moved in that they are both gone at the same time and I'm home alone again. O is at work and V is out with O1 daughter and walking some dogs in a park near here. 

I'm still loving them and glad they're here. V continues to charm me. What a good kid. Now I'm wondering if I made the right choice and wonder what life would have been like had I been able to give him a child or be with him and watch A grow-up. 

I wasn't ready so...the past choices are the past choices. 

V is giving me a reason to...I don't want to say live again because that sounds so dramatic but ...yeah. My life has been going on and I've been so lonely. E was great but she wasn't a...kid that needs my love and attention. And this one needs me as much as I need them.

Thank goodness I'll be chatting with my therapist tomorrow. This whole thing happened right away and so intensely. 

But maybe it really is that my maternal instinct was there all along but I buried it.

So there is a new me coming along.

O and V

You know, the day I found out Pop was gone, I had a conversation with him in my room and part of the conversation was me asking him to bring me someone to love. 

Well, he brought me 2 someone's. 

O just came home from taking the bus back and forth to the grocery store and brought home so many bags full of good stuff. I remember those days of taking groceries on the bus and I hated it. I don't believe she doesn't mind, but I don't her to want to have to keep working so hard and doing things like that. 

But since she feels so strongly about it, I said how about you take care of the food/feeding of all of us and asked her to feed me like she feeds V...lots of fruits and vegetables and the same portion sizes. I'm not even the slightest bit scared or nervous about giving this over to her ...my food and eating. In all fairness, I told her then that I will take care of all of the other household things. Cleaning and supplies, including toilet paper :D 

So I'm realizing that not only do I have V to love but also mom, O. I love them both so much and it's not even been a week. 

O works so hard and I want to do everything I can to take some stuff off of her plate. I want to see her relaxed and knowing she's doing an excellent job of doing everything she needs to do to take care of them. And she's not alone anymore. 

V is going to be starting school on Wednesday and I'm going to do homework when he does. That will be good for us both. 

There have been no downsides to this arrangement so far. Sure the space isn't the biggest but our schedules vary enough that everyone has time and space to themselves. 

I feel like the luckiest woman in the world right now...or

Thank you Pop.