1 Week Later...

Happy 1 week anniversary in the new place! A week ago R & I were working our asses off to move me in. I'm so glad that's over. I'm never moving again.

So here it is...my "new" life. Living in the city again is quite the experience. I didn't realize how quiet things were out in the 'burbs until I got back into the city. Though the building is awfully quiet and I haven't seen a lot of people yet.

Taking the bus again is quite the adventure, but at least it's any easy one this time around.

My car is currently sitting at work. Waiting for me to decide what to do with it. It's been the best thing to leave it at work since I can park it there for free. (Have I mentioned what a pain it is to park downtown?)

I went to the Farmer's Market for the first time today. I was surprised by how many sellers were selling the same things -mostly spring onions, asparagus, lettuce & plants. But apparently they have to live within 75 miles of the market location & grow the stuff themselves. And it's not time for fruits & such yet. I did manage to find a booth selling cucumbers & broccoli so picked some of that up, as well as getting a bouquet of flowers. I'm toying with getting a plant or two. That sure would be a new thing for me. The last time I had a plant, it was a cactus and I managed to keep it alive for quite a few months! So maybe it's time to be brave and hope that I could succeed with plants.

I haven't put up any pictures yet because I just don't know what I should put where. And my walls are so....big and my pictures so not.

I'm also daydreaming of finding a pair of matching lounge chairs. And a rug to help create the "living room". And I still want a storage ottoman. And what should I do with that corner by the bed? I feel like I need to do more to make this place "homey". But I don't want to have a lot of stuff.

I just have to be patient and let things happen as they happen.

I'm a bit bored right now. And I'll admit it. I'm a bit lonely. I knew that would happen and that was the advantage to living with others. I was never really alone.

I'm sure I should call up some of my St. Paul friends and set up some times to get together but something keeps me from doing it. I don't know what it is. Maybe it's that those friends have such full lives with close friends/family that I don't quite feel like I ...fit in. ?  I'm sure my expectations are too high and it doesn't have to be a big deal to just get together with someone for a meal or a movie or whatever but knowing that I'm not even the most important person to my friends makes me just want to keep to myself, even if it means being a bit lonely at times.

Yet, as much as I want to be somebody's best friend or the love of their life, I do cherish my freedom and independence. I am truly a contradiction come to life.

I guess I could at least check out things to do down here and see if there isn't anything I'd enjoy doing by myself...see if there are classes or whatever.

*Sigh*

I knew that no matter where I went, I'd still be myself ...and that just because I put myself into a new environment that my life wouldn't suddenly become perfect.

So now it's time to start enjoying making a home for myself and get some new interests. Right? Right!

And so the next chapter begins...

It seems a little bit...petty...to say that moving is a time when you find out who your true friends are.

R was my rock. I couldn't have done this without him, literally.

But now it's done and I don't think my body will ever recover. I had to find energy and strength I didn't know I have. And I truly had to "suck it up" as a friend is fond of saying.

Sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do don't you?

Anyway, so here I am. Spent my first night in my new home last night. Managed to eek out enough motivation at the end of the night to make up the bed and take a shower.

Then this morning, Pop was kind enough to come down & help me with replacing the shower head with my handheld one. And then get the pictures and mirrors out of the car before I took her out to work to park her there (I'm reminded, parking downtown St. Paul can suck.) and then experience the joys of public transportation in going home.

So here I am, sitting on the loveseat, with the windows open and looking out at the trees in the park and just thinking it all still seems...unreal. This really, finally happened. It's not just something that I can't wait for to happen. It's not just a crazy dream.

*Sigh*

I've got so so much to do still but am too pooped to do anything but relax right now.

But let me tell you...I am totally getting a kick out of setting up MY home. And I'm never moving again!!!! If I can help it.

Downtown St. Paul is a bit quieter on Sunday afternoons. I like that. It was kind of loud last night, but that was out in the streets, not in the building. It's been quiet in the building so far...haven't heard or met any of my neighbors yet. Well, beyond saying hello that is. The building has a lot of dogs though...that much I can tell. But thankfully I don't think they are in the apartments around me.

Hmm, the thought of taking a nap just floated through my mind...maybe. I don't know. I know there is no hurry to unpack & settle in but yet there is.

I guess I don't know what exactly would change with this move yet I know everything has. I'm back in the city, surrounded by life and noise. I just hope I venture out, meet people because I don't want to find myself feeling lonely even though I'm not really alone with all of this...life around me.

Now aren't these nice?

CANCER (June 21-July 22): Your right brain and left brain have rarely
been on such close speaking terms as they are right now. Your genitals
and your heart seem to be in a good collaborative groove as well. Even
your past and your future are mostly in agreement about how you should
proceed in the present. To what do we owe the pleasure of this rather
dramatic movement toward integration? Here's one theory: You're being
rewarded for the hard work you have done to take good care of yourself.

LEO (July 23-Aug. 22): A South African biologist was intrigued to
discover an interesting fact about the rodent known as the elephant
shrew: It much prefers to slurp the nectar of pagoda lilies than to nibble
on peanut butter mixed with apples and rolled oats. The biologist didn't
investigate whether mountain goats would rather eat grasses and rushes
than ice cream sundaes or whether lions like fresh-killed antelopes better
than Caesar salad, but I'm pretty sure they do. In a related subject, Leo, I
hope that in the coming weeks you will seek to feed yourself exclusively
with the images, sounds, stories, and food that truly satisfy your primal
hunger rather than the stuff that other people like or think you should
like.

(Free Will Astrology, week of May 2, 2012)

I know it may seem weird that I've got the Cancer one here too, but haven't I mentioned how since my birthday is on July 25 I consider myself on the cusp of Cancer/Leo? :P  Actually it's only as I've gotten older that I've found myself relating more and more to the Cancer sign.

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One week from today I will be sweating my ass off and going through the joys of moving...again.

I'm excited but I sure do hate the moving part. I can see why people hire others to do it for them. (I actually looked into it but the amount was a bit much for what I have.) And even though I really don't have that much stuff, I'm still looking around at what I've got in boxes and I'm wondering if there isn't more I can rid of. I mean, what does a person really need to live? Clothes, shoes, toiletries, bed/bedding, computer, kindle & phone. :)

*Sigh*

I went to drop off rent today and check out the fitness room (and there's a sauna too!) and then take a look at my new home w/out someone else's stuff and it's actually a bit smaller than I remember, but with the bathroom/closet and kitchen being in separate places from the main space, it will be just fine. My living space won't have to have my dressers in it...they'll fit in the closet. Or hell, maybe I should only keep the one dresser????

My shirts/pants can just go on hangers...hmm. Something to think about.

But either way, it's still a cool space and I can't wait to begin my new life there.

Not that I expect I will be changing all that much...I am still kind of a homebody and like my quiet time. But I guess I think with coffee shops, bars and restaurants and an awesome park that often is hosting free music events, I am hoping I just might venture out a bit more. We'll see.

It's definitely bittersweet to be leaving R's place. But I'm ready to go.

Time to go post pics on FB.