So I'm finally home again tonight. K came back today and I finally get to be back in my home. (Though I sure am going to miss life in an environment full of air-conditioning and cable...)
*sigh*
But before I start focusing on the things I'm grateful for, I have to mention that my mailbox was jammed full and included was a card to call the St. Paul Police Dept. regarding a
complaint. And the guy is in the Family and Sexual Violence Unit (thank goodness for a voice mail that had a personalized outgoing message so I knew who I was calling...NOT. )
WHAT THE FUCK???
After initially freaking out BIG time (and being my melodramatic self and texting R & N) I'm convinced that it has GOT to be that
I'm a witness to something and that I've done nothing wrong. Still...Family and Sexual Violence Unit??? WTF? (Can you get reported for being naked in a living room?)
So I just read the SPPD info. on that unit and yup, WHAT THE FUCK??? And
tomorrow is a holiday. I wonder how long I'm going to have to wait until I
find out what the hell this is about???
THIS kind of thing is why I'd rather stay in the "Great Indoors". The
less interaction I have with the outside world, the more shit won't
happen to me. I just want to live my life and stay out of <trouble>.
Man, I wish I had air-conditioning. I was really hoping B would have had
time to either put it this air-conditioner he has that he's going to let me use ... in or at least drop it off
for me to do. I probably could have done it as I've done it before. But I know the poor guy is beyond busy -and yes, as he reminded me, he's even busier this time of year with lawns to mow. (As long as he gives me a great birthday card, I can deal because he gives good card.)
So here we are, Independence Day eve. And I have an opportunity to not spend a/the holiday alone feeling sorry for
myself tomorrow. N (from work) let me invite myself to spend the day with her, her kids, her boyfriends kids and a couple of other friends of hers fishing and swimming. But now this terrible thought just came to me ...should I worry about this complaint business? I'm
going to be around kids. But I've never done anything to a child. Or an
elderly person. Or anyone. The only one I hurt is myself. (Oooh that's deep. Maybe need to think about that a little bit more sometime...?)
Anyway, time to stop freaking out and calm the fuck down and think about all of the things I'm grateful for and there are so many.
So without further ado -
☯ That I have a roof over my head
☯ That my parent's are alive and taking [better] care of themselves
☯ That I have a job
☯ That I have a friend who trusts me enough to take care of her "baby" and her house and also pays me well to do it
☯ That I have really great co-workers
☯ That I know really good people and they enjoy spending time with me
☯ That B is so considerate and helps me in a zillion different ways (the most recent thing -giving me an adapter plug thingy so I can plug the laptop into the wall by the sofa (yes, I've decided to call the loveseat a sofa. Yup.)
And now that I'm home, I'm thankful that I had the resources available to buy the rug & the ottoman. They are perfect and make it feel more ...homey.
And I guess that matters so much because I feel safest at home. It's not only my nest but my sanctuary.
And now it's almost midnight and I am very tired. I've got an early morning -N will be picking me up before 8am
...that's if I don't wuss out.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them