So here they are. Five Steps to Positive Thinking

Or after listening, what I call good, common sense. In a nutshell.

1. Decide to focus on the positive. Look for the good in all situations. Focus on what's right in your world, not wrong. Make it a habit. Commit to it. (I've always called this looking for the silver lining)
2. Decide to become curious instead of judgmental -of others and yourself. (Those in glass houses shouldn't throw stones was a popular saying in my house growing up)
3. Decide to find something to appreciate from any seemingly negative person/situation. Develop habit of giving compliments. Whatever situation, appreciate what is and isn't working. (Lesson learned in my 20's -learn to take a compliment and not dismiss it. People usually don't give compliments unless they mean them (right?))
4. Decide NOT to be perfect. (This is my favorite. Already living this one! Gave up years ago) You're gonna make poor decisions, you're gonna screw up, you're gonna say things you shouldn't say, you're gonna do things you shouldn't do but instead of beating yourself up, decide what you do want -like to not to do those things again. Realize that if you are just trying to be a better person every day then it's OK to to not be perfect.
5. Decide to develop habit of using the F word (oh, I know a F word I like) but he's talking about faith. Positive thinking is really just the power to believe. Have courage to put yourself on the line and overcome fears. No matter how bad it seems, you've made it this far and if you're still standing, you're already successful.

Persistence or stubborness?

So as you may know already I've been watching episodes of "Remington Steele" (Pierce Brosnan back then sooooo does it for me)-what I haven't mentioned is that I'm approaching it with the same attitude as I did with "Bones" (though this time I am sparing you commentary). I started from the beginning and am going to keep going until the end. However, this series will be a bit more tricky to watch until the end because I have to figure out where I'm going to get the 4th season and subsequent finale movies from -for free (I'm so spoiled now. Who needs Netflix when you've got the internet and a good computer?) So I'll check my usual sources like the library and see if I don't get lucky. I'll even try graboid -what the heck, I've already paid for the cheapest membership ($4.99) and am not really using it much since most of my other shows can be found at hulu and surf the channel (the best places for free stuff I've found so far.)

Well, yeah! Just thought I'd check the graboid site and they have the 4th season. Cool. So I'll be able to at least watch most of it. I will eventually have to get my hands on the finale movies because that, from what I've read, is the climax, literally. After 4 seasons of will-they-or-won't-they (but with kissing, LOTS of kissing) we're supposed to finally see them consummating their relationship (well, I don't think we actually see that but we're led to believe it happens.)


(I think I like the song that accompanies this more than the clips! I'll have to see if I have this on my ipod or hello limewire)

I'm like a dog with a bone when it comes to watching series. I like to see it from the beginning and then see it through to the bitter/sad/satisfying/unsatisfying/bewildering/bad/great ending. If I don't see the beginning, I just can't watch. It's like starting a book in the middle. I need the history! Even if we're plopped down in the middle of the characters lives.

Ah, TV. A potent drug.

I hope I have the patience for this one...I'm nearing the end of season 2 and I'm thinking to myself -yikes -2 more seasons of this? All kissing and no sex? (Let's just get down to it already!)

But I've started it and I've invested a lot of hours of watching it so far and I can't just quit now.

I am the sort of person that likes to finish what I start. It almost physically pains me when I don't.

Now if only I was this stubbornly motivated about other areas in my life 'eh? Imagine what I could accomplish.

Oooh, speaking of that. Was over at limewire looking for stuff and came across excepts from some Tony Robbins material and one title starts with "Eliminating Self-Sabotage..."

Ever since I saw him in "Shallow Hal" (we won't get into my commentary on that movie right now and believe me, as a "full-figured" woman, I've got things to say about that movie, but we'll just save that for some other time) I've thought, OK, maybe I'll listen to what he has to say but never got around to it until now (I know, I know, years and years later since the movie came out in 2001) Anyhoo. I'll give that a listen one of these days and have it give me, hopefully, a different way to think about that topic. New insight that just might lead to action.

I did listen to a bit on "Five Steps to Positive Thinking" and it made sense. I guess I was afraid he was some brainwashing/programming scam artist but I don't think that now. It's 4am and while I have energy to type all this, I don't want to get into the 5 steps right this minute (ah, yes, more procrastination) ....I'll listen again later and then give you the highlights.

Oh, an idea! Maybe listening to his stuff will put me sleep instead of the classical music I've resorted to for the past week or so. (No offense to classical music but it sure does the trick, thank god. I went through a bad bout of insomnia there for a bit...well, worse than usual) and then maybe if there is good stuff, it'll sink into my subconscious while I sleep and I'll be a whole new motivated person when I wake up! :)

Crikey. I really should just stop this here for now, do a little proofreading and then put myself to bed. So OK. (And I thought I didn't have really anything to say tonight!) :)

This is fun and maybe just a bit true

Who I am.

There is a recurring dream I have where I am just about to be "chosen" finally...the man I love and want seems to love and want me back but then it always ends with it not happening and I don't “get the guy” (I know people aren't possessions) after all (Granted, I think some of the times it doesn't happen is because I wake up)

So here I am readily admitting, out loud, what I want most in the world is to be loved like the heroines in the books I read. I want love. As the character of "Carrie Bradshaw" says in the series finale of "Sex and the City" "I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love."

There I've said it (well, she said it but you know what I mean)

As usual, plans changed

So this "weekend" didn't go the way I planned. Yesterday, Thursday, was all about just vegging out and relaxing. Was totally OK with that having worked an entire week for a change. No time w/B except for brief phone time and then today was all about getting my car back from my brother -needed/got new strut for oh, only $170. Eeeeeeeeeeeek! Then nappin' 'til time to go to shift at SPCO. Now here and bored. Not going out w/S tonight because my finances are in dire straits. (Bad, bad Sam taking those unpaid days off.) After work tonight, going to hit the grocery store and stock up on ramen noodles. Ugh. You gotta do what you gotta do though right?

So I've been watching more episodes of "Remington Steele". Have felt the need for pure escapism TV and boy, does that ever fit the bill.

Tonight however, I'll watch the latest eps of "Bones", "Hell's Kitchen" & "Supernatural".

Work tomorrow and for the next few days. Next Thursday I'm thinking of attempting to head down to FL. Got a call from my aunt today and apparently she's moving out into her own place. Good for her. I have mentioned her husband and son are shits right? So maybe this will help. We -my mother and that part of the family -want her to come up here -but w/a teenage son who's life is there -this probably is the best compromise. So anyway, I'll head down Thursday and come back Friday night. Just a short visit to give her some love and support (besides it doesn't cost me a penny!)

Only 2 more hours before done here. What am I going to do to kill the time? I should have brought a book. Oh well. I'm sure I'll find something to do here online....

Later.

Whoa! This ought to be interesting

http://www.tvguide.com/News/IFC-Adapting-Anita-1004605.aspx

Bringing Anita Blake to the big screen!!!

OK, I give in, give up, give out

So I've finally joined Facebook. Though only did the bare minimum to "get me in". I've got a couple of friends who have been on it for awhile but it took an invitation from my cousin Susanne in England to get me to sign up. Keeping up with this blog is about all I've got the energy for these days. I did My Space a couple of years ago but lost interest after awhile. It was just too much and keeping up with it was crazy. So how will this blog be different? Hmmm, well, I don't know. But I do know I'm likin' the blogging thing much more from the start then I did My Space. I'm probably gonna do some stuff to jazz it up tonight. It's lookin' a little boring isn't it?

So can you believe it took me until now to realize that over at Vh1.com you can watch music videos from artists from the 80's??? OMG, I'm in freakin' new wave/80's music HEAVEN! They even have the not-so-popular singles. I was just looking at my choices on the "A" page and they've got 10 videos for A-ha! 10! The biggest single for them was "Take On Me" but they have so many other great songs. So now that it's my weekend, we know what I'll be doing! Actually, maybe not since I'm hopefully gonna have a date w/B Thursday night and have a shift at the SPCO, then dancing! clubbing! w/S and her honey on Friday night.

TGIF. It was a long week. OK, so now I'm gonna go and jazz this thing up a bit.