My computer is running reaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllllly slow and freezing up lately. It's pissing me off big time. I've "defragged" "disk clean-up"'d, etc. No luck. I think it might be the couple of movies that I downloaded from Graboid that's slowing me down. So I either better hustle and watch 'em, decide to delete 1 of them w/out watching ("Atonement") or delete both (the other is "The Brothers Bloom") ...we'll see what I get around to tonight. I could always request "Atonement" from the library. I've waited this long to see it, what's another few months? And the other movie? Well, I really wanted to see it after watching a preview on Hulu. Maybe I'll open it up and see if it's the real deal. (Graboid is like a Limewire but for TV/Movies.)
OK, made a decision. Just deleted both. The latter because I discovered that I didn't have the whole movie and the former because, well, just because. I'll just do the library thing or find it elsewhere online sometime.
But I'm acting as if I'm going to be able to tear myself away from my latest obsession....
I'm totally addicted to some Facebook "games" right now. Farmville and Cafe World. (Yoville is next!) How insane is that there are a MILLION things to do online (it's not just for porn!) and I'm getting off on "cooking" food, planting seeds/trees & then harvesting stuff. I think it might have something to do with control and seeing something through from start to finish. How often do we get pleasure from those things in real life? Actually maybe that just says something about my own life...I feel out of control so I'm taking it where I can, even if it's not in the real world.
Or maybe it's just fucking games and I'll grow bored with them soon enough.
Ah, happy hump day to me.
Pumpkin bread cooling downstairs. Think I'll mosey on down and try it out. (It's a frozen just-pop-in-the-oven version I'm trying out for the first time)...
Oh, exciting news! J is getting a new dishwasher for the house! Sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet! I hate dishes but I don't mind loading and unloading a dishwasher! I had to hug her when she told me the news.
Hmm, what else, oh...yeah, my weekend was awesome. First day off was "jammie" day as previously reported (you get why that really is a lovely thing right? That the girls are free to breathe and be loose and free, not confined to a cage that it takes forever to get them into then and is uncomfortable all day...someday maybe I'll find the perfect cage....)
Then on Friday/Sunday, after working a shift at the SPCO (ooh, that reminds me, got an email about December shifts...this is a good time for me to decide if I'm gonna quit or not....?)
I got together with Shanna for a late dinner. After preparing ourselves for and with a treat, off to Pizza Luce' on Lyndale we go. Yummy. Just yummy. We ended up w/hoagies though because little miss fussy eater here didn't want to have quite the same kind of pizza Shanna wanted.
And those mints! More please! (Just thinking about them makes my mouth water :P )
It's nice to just have a good meal and some conversation with someone isn't it?
Hmm, what else? Work OK...back to the not-hating-it right now (but could that be because I'm sneaking in updates to my FB games in between phone calls??? I am baaaaaaaaaaaaad!)
This upcoming weekend should be fun. Going to get together w/Irma to do something...not sure what yet, but it'll be fun to catch up with her...it's payday on Friday and I'm gonna be so happy! I've kinda blown through my last check...buying new sheets was not quite in the budget but I did it anyway!
Ciao for now.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them