So I'm definitely going to be watching out for the new season of "Drop Dead Diva" sometime next year. I just finished watching the season 1 season finale and Wowza! Can't wait to see what happens next season.
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I'm going to start spending some time looking up recipes and/or ideas for more healthy things to cook/prepare, with an eye toward figuring out how to keep them fast and easy because I'm just [stubbornly] not wanting to give up any of my precious sleep time prior to work.
See, I've developed a bad habit of not preparing any "breakfast" at home before I leave for work and have instead been stopping for food and of course, most of the time, it's by zipping through a drive-thru of some kind. Now of course, yes, I can make healthier selections at these places ("Eat This, Not That" actually had great advice for fast food junkies like me ..e.g. at BK, a Whopper Jr. (w/out the mayo) a small order of onion rings and a diet soda...yes! Really!) but I usually just say screw it and NOT order that. I could be smarter and do the Subway thing but only if I make the time to actually stop, park and go in. Or hell, I could even go the route of a co-worker and have a bowl of Special K in the a.m., Chipotle burrito bowl for mid-day meal and Special K again at night and then lose a bunch of weight! NOT! (OK, yeah, a teesny weensy bit tempted but I think I'd get bored with that after a couple of days and there isn't a Chipotle right on my way to work...I'd have to detour! Oh I know, poor Sam! Yes, I'd like a nice Gouda to go with that whine :P)
At the same time, I'm sick of fast food in general. Oh, sure I'll keep eating it (who are we kidding???) but I have to do better. (Recent observation is that when I'm low on funds and having to make do with groceries and preparing more meals for myself, I eat less crap/junk.)
Or maybe I should just get my tired, lazy butt out of bed and start adding some discipline to my life. I should get up, have a good, healthy breakfast, make coffee and then off to work. (Why not throw in a yoga'ish workout/stretch session while I'm at it? :P )
I'm so spoiled by my freedom to do what I want, when I want and NOT do anything I don't want to (uh, besides go to work! :> ) that it feels....wrong? No, it feels sooooo right. I spent most of my adolescence and young adult life being told what to do (like most kids) from having to do chores (dishes, taking turns w/my brother cooking dinner, vacuuming, laundry, cleaning the kitchen, taking the garbage out, clean my room, etc.), going to school AND working on days that we didn't have meetings, preparing for and going to those meetings 3 x's a week...(geez, no wonder I was so bloody tired as a teenager!)
Maybe all of this is a roundabout way of saying I like my life (mostly) but that I can make it a better life by focusing on getting a bit healthier. I've been out-of-control and not caring and it's about time to get back on track and pay some attention to me physically.
I wonder if giving up some of the things I enjoy that ARE bad for me would be a good enough compromise so that I could keep drinking the nectar of the gods, Mountain Dew?
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Speaking of health...It's soon open enrollment time at work for health benefits for 2010 and I've got a LOT of information to read. I'm going to have to pick a plan if I want to continue to get my "happy" pills. I'm not looking forward to whatever choice I'll end up making because nothing will compare to the wonderful health insurance I've had for the past couple of years.
I was lucky enough to get into a program called Stay Well, Stay Working that was a pilot project created to study what would happen for people who had a history of depression and losing jobs when they had full resources to help them maintain their physical, mental AND emotional help so that they could continue working.
We had a "navigator" to check in with and have as a resource for things we needed help with. There was also a survey to fill out annually.
I will hope that after they look at all of the data and results from this project that they find a way to have this as a permanent program for those who need it. Even if I never have it again, it was such a gift and I know played a part in helping me stay focused on being employed FULL-TIME, at one place, for the past 2 years (and even though I've had some rough spots, I still have a job!) I know others would benefit from this type of thing.
Now I just have to pick a new health plan that is the best plan for me and hope I make the right choice.
On that note, let's make a good decision for me and put myself to bed. Ciao.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them