As of 1AUG20 I am no longer employed. COVID-19 impacted business so much at work that they took away the Premium desk from MSP and sent the work to the sales desk/team in ATL. And because the only job everyone was really going to be left with was SSS/individual sales, I opted to take the voluntary separation package. 20 weeks of severance, up to 12 months of health/dental/vision insurance, 2 confirmed space passes & retiree flight benefits.
It was a tough decision because who wants to start again at 50? Who wants to deal with resumes and interviews? BUT in the end, I've been feeling like I need a change anyway. I want to find work that has more meaning. I'm not exactly sure what I mean by that but I know what it isn't and that's selling a product for corporate America. Oh sure, I loved the money and profit sharing (oh how I'm going to miss profit sharing) BUT I am now going to learn to live on less and just see what the next chapter of my working life is going to look like.
I'm taking the month of August "off" and will start looking for work seriously next month. In the meantime, my cleaning lady offered my a job, calling businesses and signing them up for her commercial cleaning services. I'd be cold-calling and my pay would be a percentage of how much she gets per contract. I'll be thinking about it...it could be a way to bring in some cash while I figure out what's next...the only reason I'm even remotely considering it is because I know her and she does a great job with her residential cleaning business. Selling a service, yes, selling a product, no.
In the meantime...I'm just doing little things to try and take care of myself better. I'm meeting with a personal chef tomorrow for a consult. The idea is to have the chef come once a week and make my meals for the week. I am hoping that will be a better solution to dealing with food. I've been spending way too much on food delivery and while I want to cook, I just don't have the stamina for it.
I'm hoping the chef will have idea of how to make the foods I like healthier and homemade.
I need to get healthier. OK, yeah, that's a broken record. I always say that, but this time I have to mean it.
I was telling A (my therapist/who I have phone appointments with) that I've been thinking that there was some magic key I was looking for that would unlock something in my brain that would make me WANT to eat healthier/become more active (aka lose weight) but then I realized that it maybe just isn't that simple. Changes only happen because you actively just make those better choices in what you eat and you become more active even if you don't want to.
So...I'll start with food and if the weather cooperates, I'll get myself down to the pool more often.
On a side note - my 50th birthday party was great. S flew in from SAN!!!!!! So even though we had to keep our distance and masks were work (for most of the time) -- it was wonderful spending the day with people I love. B couldn't make it but he still made time to celebrate my birthday earlier in the week even with his dad having a stroke!!!!
So we continue to ride the roller-coaster but I'm still, if not more, in love with him than I was before.
Well, this was brief and there is so much more to cover but I've got to get ready for my date tonight.
Until next time.
