Well, THIS is a brilliant one (After I write this I decide this is also kind of a sarcastic title too.)

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." -Robert Frost

(Thanks to Sara from STCU)

And isn't that the truth. It goes on.

The apartment is mine. I move May 12. I'm beyond excited to start the next chapter of my life. While it's been a great experience to live with R ( & then K), it's time to move on.

It's a bit more than I thought I would be spending and the car will probably have to go if I don't want to be broke all the time (again) but I know I can make it work if I can just stop -or at least curb -the desire to spend every damn dime I've got in my pocket (what the hell is THAT all about anyway???)

As I continued to go through boxes last weekend, I came across a bunch of photos and some of them were of my apartment at Grant St. Commons. I think I was excited about that one too...the big window with the awesome view of downtown, the dishwasher, the fitness room, the fairly good-sized apartment with an area where it wouldn't be obvious to have the bed...

But this is better. It's St. Paul. It's got its own washer & dryer! It's kitty corner from a nice park - Mears Park. It's a block away from the one bus to take me to work. I guess somehow I just keep gravitating toward that kind of life -downtown and on good public transportation (I need that freedom for when a car is not available.)

But as I think about this new life of mine, I do think about what that new life is going to be like. Living here, I have friends, just upstairs and I never feel alone, even when they're not home.

There, it will be me. Just me. Not even a cat this time to keep me company. I'm not sure how I feel about that.

Now, I prefer to spend plenty of time by myself. I'm content with my company and don't feel lonely but will I feel lonely living on my own?

I guess I'm hoping that since I'll be in St. Paul, I'll be closer to my St. Paul friends...and there is no reason in the world why we shouldn't get together. I'll be on the same side of the river as my parent's. I'll be in a busier part of downtown (Grant St. really didn't have a lot of good stuff nearby/the area of downtown Minneapolis not exactly the swankiest) -Lowertown has supposedly got a lot going on. And if anything, there is a liquor store a block away. Maybe I'll just become a functioning alcoholic. Kidding!

I hate this waiting though...it's like I'm going to go have this wonderful new adventure and it's taking FOREVER to happen.

I'm eager to decide how I'm going to decorate. I don't have really any of the stuff I had at Grant St. (or Grand Ave.) and so will be starting kind of fresh with that stuff too.

Because none of my stuff "matches" and my mom wants to give me stuff that doesn't "match", I think I may embrace the eclectic, hodge-podge, look. Well at first anyway. While I figure out the money and how to add pieces that coordinate and make it look classy and pulled together. In the meantime, I'll just have fun bringing the various parts of my life coming together (old/antique furniture, modern art, clean & classic furniture, pillows made out of old concert t-shirts (thanks to Nita at work!!!)

I think I will keep a minimalist vibe going though and not go crazy with accumulating stuff. While I will be determined to stick around this place for a long long time, actually settle down and put down some roots, I'd like to do it without becoming someone who will have an episode of "Hoarders" filmed about them.

So now I'm doing that thing I sometimes do and am really thinking about my life ....because there is still that thought... is THIS it???

Work, sleep, play around online, eat, occasionally socialize with my friends, occasionally spend time with my parents.

Is that enough? Will that be enough?

*Sigh*

Oh great, Now I'm dwelling on the big question.... What is the purpose of my life???

What am I getting out of bed for everyday?

In the past, it's been small things like having a book from my favorite author to look forward to. Or another season of a favorite TV show to watch. Simple things like that.

Whoa. This is getting a bit sad isn't it? I didn't mean for things to get so heavy.

But life does go on, doesn't it? You just take it one moment at a time. There are priorities and those priorities enable me to enjoy life ...

I think that I will have to do some serious thinking though about what I want to accomplish with my life --- not that I want to cure cancer or run a marathon...it just seems like there should be more than just getting from one day to the next. From one paycheck to the next.

I probably just should just relax until I'm there and see how it goes shouldn't I?

OK. I will just ...chill.