1. Why is it that even though I'm tired at 1am, I refuse to go to bed? (Oh, I remember...because I can't actually fall asleep then...will lie awake for hours so might as well go to bed later...or is that still the case???)
2. I hate that my lower back hurts, more than usual. I had gone bowling with R & I last Wednesday night (bowling fun..I actually got to 76 on the 2nd game! This preceded by the BEST Chinese food in this town, Bill's!) and on Thursday I was in PAIN! I think the extra amount of pain has to do with the period that never comes. (Boys, feel free to skip this one :) ) My cycle is so frickin' irregular it's not even funny. I have all the symptoms, but no result. Have talked to Dr.'s about it repeatedly but the conclusion is always the same a. get on the pill but I'd have to stop smoking (? - would one really start taking the pill at 38? I would hope that none of this means I'm perimenopausal & could I really stop smoking???) b. live with it. I've chosen b so far but I don't know. I go for months without, then wham! Aunt Flo shows up and she's not only moving in for days but she's redecorating the entire house, including landscaping the yard) Other times, it's just her essence, like a ghost and then she's gone again, but everything else remains...the lower back pain, the moodiness/crankiness, craving for salt and I want IT all the time. (That last bit not so bad.)
3. Glad weather has finally warmed up again. It was cold there for a few days.
4. Cell phone back "on" and thank goodness.
5. Have pile of books to read and am not getting around to it as quickly as I ought to considering they're library books with due dates.
6. Crap, I better hurry, there is a blogger scheduled outage at 12am PDT and it's only 5 minutes away...('cause that's 2am CST time right?)
7. Hope to see friends again this week on days off. Who knows what we'll do but I'm sure it'll be fun.
8. Thought I had so many more interesting things to write about but can't think of any of them right now.
9. Am painting fingernails -as well as toenails -right now. Fun!
10. Aunt in FL is resurfacing a bit and I don't think she's doing very well, but I just can't afford to take time off to go visit/help her right now.
More later.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them