I should be going to bed now, it's almost 4 a.m. and I've got to get up and make quiche tomorrow (uh, today) before work. (We're having a little potluck sort of thing at work in celebration of a co-workers birthday and the 2 previous times I've made quiche she hasn't been there for it so I agreed to make another one ...it's pretty good if I do say so myself...as long as I don't add too much (or any) celery salt.)
I also should be asleep because I had a very exciting night last night.
After my world was rocked by the sudden appearance of that old friend yesterday, I got a call from my buddy R to see if I was free to get together and do something after my shift at the SPCO. I then asked if whatever we did could include getting [me] sloshed. I haven't done that in months and just really wanted to let off some steam. Let me tell ya, I sure do like the combination of raspberry vodka and lemonade. We had it on the rocks and it was bloody fantastic. Though next time, I'd like to try it as a blended drink (a less potent version of "Black Lemonade" consumed at Urban Mo's in San Diego ...that's a whole 'nother story I'll tell you about sometime that includes a drink made up of multiple alcoholic ingredients, wall coverings not covering a wall and having so much..."fun" I was still having "fun" on the plane on the way back to Minneapolis and at work right after)
Drinks were drunk and good conversation was had w/R and one of his roommates. An enlightening evening. A confession was made and a question asked was answered. It was good. Happily there was a comfy couch for me to sleep on as I was a good girl (no driving while intoxicated for this chickie!) But still, sleeping somewhere other than your own bed is not quite as exciting when you're approaching the big 4-0 (I know, I know, I'm only going to be 39 but I might as well be that other number already!) I managed to catch a bit of a nap after getting home this morning before work but could definitely use a good night of rest now.
Now, in case my mother IS reading this ..don't worry Mom, I'm a very infrequent drinker. :)
Had a lovely surprise waiting for me when I got home tonight. Hopped online and have heard from J. The other old friend who was dear to me and was a big part of my life before crap happened and it fell apart.
While exciting (compared to my usually quiet life) it's just all so out of the blue and I'm not sure what to think. I'm flustered and worried that I'll be self-conscious and apologetic for the person I used to be. Who was that person you ask? I don't really remember anymore so why am I so worried? It's just that I've been so focused on the here and now and just living life one moment at a time and haven't looked back. That had consequences that I'm just now realizing. I know I'm being a bit melodramatic about all of this but it's like all of a sudden I've forgotten who I am now and I need to remember who that is. Looking at those pictures I saw some of the me that was sociable and a person that lived life to the full. I think that's the person I'm trying to get back in touch with but this time around hopefully I'll do better at it in this older, wiser body/mind and soul.
Bah! Enough for now from this drama queen. Time to sleep.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them