So I'm killing some time while waiting for my date tonight w/B. It's been a month, a whole 'freakin month since we last saw each other. That is unacceptable and we are going to have a little chat about that. I'm feeling a lot better. Am back to breathing through my nose and am only coughing a wee bit (mostly when I laugh hard) ...this has been the least annoying cold I've had in years. Thank goodness.
So laying in bed this morning, hearing a song by my favorite artist, Jonatha Brooke and some of the lyrics were really talking to me "...you live your life like it's over..." oh that seems so true for me right now. I'm not going out and living ..well, like I used to. I recently told my roommate that when I was in my 20's I worked 3 jobs and was out all the time. My 30's have been about staying in but maybe I've gone too far to the extreme.
I just finished "White Witch, Black Curse" by Kim Harrison (4 out of 5 stars) and am thinking about how most of my favorite authors who write about women are writing about women who are out, about and kicking ass. They're not spending their days off from work, moping about the house, watching TV or reading. (Of course they're not because who wants to read about someone doing that?) Oh man, this is such a broken record for me. I've been saying for years how I know I need to get out and do more stuff. Take classes, get together with friends more often, etc. but do I? Nope. Why not?? I just don't know. The only thing getting in the way of my having a more active, interesting life is myself. Why don't I get out of my damn way?
And I have the nerve to get mad at B when he says he should be getting up earlier himself and then he could get a lot more done in his life (as if he needs to be doing more between working in his family's business 7 days a week, being a property owner/landlord, his family obligations, the kid and making time for moi ...I know, I know, I should give the guy a break and not bust his chops about not seeing me for a month) ...actually I know why I get mad at him for saying that...because he's already too freakin' busy! He does plenty for everyone else.
Anyhoo. I just need to do what I've advised a few others to do...just take a baby step. Spring is here (well, a hell of a lot closer than it's been)...the sun shines longer and the weather is warmer. So maybe I'll finally get some motivation to do stuff and get unstuck. We'll see.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them