What's It All About?


"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates

While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.

You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.

"Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase." MLK

Friday, July 1, 2022

Heartstopper - Greatest TV series EVER

     Once upon a time there was a streaming service called Netflix. They gave the green light to create a series based on a series of graphic novels by Alice Oseman. 

And this show...has changed me. For the better. 

And the worse.

It's a love story.

And it's a love story that makes me very sad that MY love story is ...the best I can come up with is it's the complete opposite.

My love and I are ...I don't know what we are right now.  But we are not a couple where the one person risks everything to be with the one he loves. We are not even a couple at this time. 

He will not change things until A is 18. 

And after going round and round...I'm tired of fighting for us. 

And the place I am has me sure that the right thing, the smart thing to do is to stop and re-assess in 4 years. And not only that, but if he wants me and doesn't decide to stay in his marriage -then when he comes to me, he has to be divorced. Not just separated but divorced and we're going to do this right this time. I deserve that. 

I had another thought ...I am hoping that maybe I might start to not hate myself as much when I'm not involved with a married man. 

While infidelity is not shocking to me (my normal) - it went against my hopes and dreams born out of reading romance novels I had when I was young. And while those might have been not necessarily the perfect way to learn about romance, they still featured someone getting chosen by the person they chose right back and that person was not married.

And all I want is someone of my own to love and care for and have them love and care for only me. 

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Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!

Things I'm grateful for everyday....

- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)

Current Favorite Quotes

“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain

(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)

7-25-07

1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.

Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)

  • 1. No one can bring your life to you
  • 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
  • 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
  • 4. Every choice means giving up something different
  • 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
  • 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
  • 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
  • 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
  • 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them