What's It All About?


"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates

While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.

You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.

"Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase." MLK

Friday, October 15, 2021

Blog part two aka The E Transformation Diaries

HAF

(Notes from my Notes on phone from 10/10/21)

It's going to be about my 50's and what my current life is like because the 50s are going to be very different than any of the other decades.

This is the decade that I lived with somebody again, A T (M to F) named E and we’re sharing the condo in Bloomington and I think I’m gonna be happy a lot more.

And then halfway through this decade I get to be with Brad finally… He’s going to get his fucking divorce FINALLY.

And how can I forget Noire my sweet little kitty cat;

- who isn’t allowed to go out onto the balcony until she has a harness on (she took a little trip a couple weeks ago that almost gave me a heart attack!)

And what else? Oh yeah, new job!

- I am on assignment through Robert Half working for a Capella University and I think it’s going to be an interesting job and I'm going to like it a LOT (it's the end of week 3, I've learned a ton and I've got ideas...unless they've already been thought of or exist!)

What else is this decade gonna be about - well I’m not getting into debt again but I will get control of it.

So it just occurred to me that living with Ella is going to be an adventure because I'm looking forward to us both embracing our femininity and our strength and our fortitude and our ability to survive and adapt.

We are going to get healthy together both physically and emotionally.

This adventure is also going to be about Ella‘s friends and my new friends and a new little circle of friends that I’m going to be joining for some healing and self-care time (I was so fucking thrilled that I was able to give not only clothes but good shoes to I who is about my size, who can wear them!!)

And A is back for our phone chats!

And Pop is feeling well enough to get another part-time job! He was driving a hotel shuttle but then ...fucking COVID and now he's going to be a breakfast attendant and maybe work the front desk at a hotel! Holy crap! I hope he's not going to be taking on too much with his health the way it is!!!! But go Pop! I joke that he needs to live until I get married but I want him around much longer than that!

So it's pre-E living here. I'm really hopeful that it's going to be a good experience and is exactly what I need in my life right now.

Taking care of others - need the practice for the day I get to take care of B and his little Leo A. That day will come probably faster than I think.

OK, enough for now. I've got a kitty to pay attention to (she's not allowed in my room/office while I'm working...not now at her age anyway.)

Life is GOOD and I've got so many things to be grateful for.
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Noire

Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!

Things I'm grateful for everyday....

- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)

Current Favorite Quotes

“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain

(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)

7-25-07

1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.

Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)

  • 1. No one can bring your life to you
  • 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
  • 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
  • 4. Every choice means giving up something different
  • 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
  • 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
  • 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
  • 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
  • 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them