It's better and it keeps getting better.
I think I just came across the next book I need to read as I evolve into this...new (maybe just improved?) person I'm trying to become with the exercise and eating...better.
Lose The Diet: Transform Your Body By Connecting With Your Soul.
and this was one person had to say in their review that said things the way I didn't know I wanted them said on the whole matter of where I'm at...
"I have long believed that the weight battle is not fought on the scale, or in the kitchen or at the supermarket, but in our minds.
I've
been overweight for 20 years and morbidly obese for 14 of those. Yet,
surprisingly perhaps, I haven't been on many diets. See, I knew that
diets don't work. Instead I've been trying for the last three years to
change to a healthy lifestyle that will not only return me to a normal
weight, but heal some health problems.
... for some reason or the other, I would always start sabotaging myself
after a while. This used to drive me crazy! Why can't I allow myself
to feel good and get healthy? I knew it had a lot to do with my
upbringing, my poor self-esteem and my need to rebel at every turn."
OMG. "singing my words"...
So OK. I think I'll dive in.
These changes I'm making are changes that I must embrace every single day of my life, in one way or another. It doesn't mean I won't occassionally have a "bad" day (er, Thursday/Friday pizza - ate the whole thing & Saturday chips (ate the whole bag) and salsa.) but I'm having good days too.
So another week is approaching and another week where I will just go to the fitness center everyday (because it's just what I do) and I will put together fairly healthy foods to bring for lunch.
So OK, yeah, let's look at it from the emotional, mental side of things and see where that takes me next.