I'm writing this while someone else is in the room with me.
I've made a new friend. Scary but cool.
N (work) and I are now hanging out for the 2nd time this month. Last Saturday we went to her place and ate pizza, got happy, drank a little & watched some Sex and The City and had just a fucking awesome time.
She's hanging out for a bit...was supposed to have a date with this guy and this was his 3rd Strike after breaking 2 previous dates.
In regards to her "date"...here's my philosophy...courtesy of an episode of SATC...he's just not that into you.
Someone who's not that into you won't make time for you no matter how fucking crazy their schedule is.
I know firsthand.
God, I love B so much. He's such a good man and takes care of so many people including me. And I love that he loves being a dad and is a good dad. His daughter is so lucky to have him.
Oh...where was I? Oh yeah, N.
She's texting another man who's she's got a ...complicated relationship with. And texting 2 other guys friends of hers. She's juggling a lot of men and I'm trying to have her benefit from the wisdom gained from some of my experiences. Sometimes it gets through to her, sometimes it doesn't (e.g. she thought she had to have it all figured out by now. Crazy!!!!)
But she's on her own journey in regards to her relationships and love.
She's really been a good friend to me so far. We're "gym buddies" at work. Yes, I said "gym buddies". After joining the gym at work (on the last Friday of 2013) I finally went for my orientation and started the new routine last week. I go everyday at lunch, instead of going to lunch (and that is where I learned how fucking long 10 minutes is.)
I have to be patient with myself in this...much as I might want to do everything because I'm in a hurry to get to the part where I start losing weight...I have to remember it won't happen overnight (and it certainly won't happen until my eating habits improve... :P ) and I have to focus on how I feel physically and that is what will keep me going. I did feel better physically even if that feeling was tired. It was a good kind of tired.
And I think I'm also going to look at other ways to get back in touch with my body. I've been out of touch with it for a while now.
I decided to put the BED issue on the back-burner for now and I canceled my appointments with the therapist. I think I'm going to try "physical" therapy for a change.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them