What's It All About?


"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates

While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.

You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.

"Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase." MLK

Sunday, December 29, 2013

Reality Check.

So now having joined the gym at work, all I can think about is what my plan (and goal?) is in doing that.

In being honest with myself, it's to help me lose weight.  From what I've read, that can't be the focus though...exercising and eating right are important steps but recovery from the BED has to be about self-love, self-acceptance and all that stuff.

And yet because it is partially about the exercise and eating better. I've decided that I still need to do this MY way and that is...gradually.

My fridge is full of fruit, veggies, yogurt and 12 grain bread. Along with cheese, ham and caramel rolls. And I'm going to incorporate all of those things that I consider good for me and bad for me into my meals.  And I just have to eat the damn good stuff before it expires or goes bad.

And exercising will be something I ease myself into ...not expecting too much from myself too soon.

If I "play" the movie, what I want to see is myself as a size 16/18. (And that is not a skinny person.) I see the curvy, sexy woman who enjoyed life a little bit more. That is the picture in my head but not the one reflected back in photos nor the mirror.

And I think she's in there somewhere, I think.

And I think I'm going to have call that program and go forward and get help. I have to realize that I don't have to do it alone. I have to remember that I've gotten help for things in the past and they've [usually] helped.

And I have to remember that my life is worth all of this. I have so many people to be thankful for. I've got so many things to be thankful for.

Lucky me.
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Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!

Things I'm grateful for everyday....

- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)

Current Favorite Quotes

“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain

(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)

7-25-07

1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.

Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)

  • 1. No one can bring your life to you
  • 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
  • 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
  • 4. Every choice means giving up something different
  • 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
  • 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
  • 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
  • 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
  • 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them