So I took a few days "off" last week.
Unintentionally. One day turned into four. :(
I thought it was because I was just overly tired from the excitement of the previous week and maybe a little bit sad about the thing that went down with S after I got home...but then upon further reflection, I thought it had to do with my needing a break from having to keep smiling! And being so happy! and have people ask why I was being so quiet (I'm fucking WORKING!) and now upon even deeper further reflection, I'm now thinking that I was getting...I hate to say it but kind of ...yup, gonna say it...bored.
And it was also because of all of the above.
Either way, I made it through this week -well, most of the week since I do have a Dr. appointment in the middle of the day tomorrow and will miss about a 1/2 day. But other than that. I "sucked it up" and got my ass into work. I need to keep doing that. When I don't, is when my money shit goes to shit.
And I wasn't bored this week. Though right this minute I'm thinking about how I made everything out to be so ...dramatic. And I can probably dial it back. A little bit.
I may get to the only person to work on a booking (we don't do that in my area.) and be in charge of a group that has 1,000 seats on reserve (with potentially twice that amount!) It will be the biggest group I've ever taken care of (take THAT, resume!) It's not a sure thing yet...dependent on factors outside of my control.
But there were other minor issues that I made out to be more than they were. Not everything is life or death in my department. We're an airline. Nothing is life or death (uh, let's hope never the latter as we are an airline.)
But as crazy as it was at times, I loved it and the drama made me feel alive. And it was minor drama, not major. How happy am I that it was minor drama that was enough to perk me up and make me stop dreading going to work so much.
The opportunity to do some things beyond my normal duties is very appealing. And as my mother says, I do need a challenge [every once in a while.] and I'm hoping I don't fuck it up.
And I need to keep the job that is now giving me 3 fucking paid weeks off in a year. And a fairly decent hourly wage (for a non-college grad) and the ability to fly (domestically) for fucking free.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them