So I finally think I'm about to take some action for a change.
I got a call from a guy named John at the Y. Have to meet up with them before can start free trial. (I guess that makes sense.)
And I'm really excited about this.... but and actually it's a big BUT how much are we going to talk about health vs. money? I have visions of telling him of the things I've done and are doing (no soda, no fast food, etc.) and how the PT I've had makes me want to do this... and what they've recommended exercise-wise...
In re: to the money....they have scholarships and I really hope I would eligible/get one.
While I'm fucked financially, this would be worth it.
I've also been thinking about asking my neighbors -the ones I've met so far anyway Kyle, Ben, etc. if they might be interested in having a pot-luck party or something. And/or ask the women in the office if there was anything planned for the building. (I only wonder because the last thing they put together wasn't very well attended.)
But what I worry is that there wouldn't be much interest. Or maybe I'm really worried about if there IS! God forbid I have to actually follow-through with something again!
****Note - Kyle came to take Lenny out and am asking what he thinks (he's more sociable than I am!) When he gets back from taking the dog out, we'll chat!
********Note - he came back and gave me a piece of paper w/a time and place and guest list of party they're having with just a few of the neighbors. 14Dec. 8pm. Apparently the plan was in motion. I'm so glad he invited me, though he's not the one hosting it so I'm a little nervous about him inviting me....
(But I don't dare ask the people hosting...1. I don't know if I know/remember them and 2. I would hate for them to say yes out of ...pity.)
***********************OMG! While I love that he invited me, now I'm terrified! It's been so long since I've gone to a party with people I don't know very well. Let's face it, it takes a lot for me to really ...talk less and listen more. Think I better do some more reading and practice with others before then. It's not that I'm not interested. I'm always just racing ahead in my mind to get to the part that I can relate to...OK, let's be honest, the part that relates to ME. Gawd, I am so ...self-involved sometimes. But wait...is that really so wrong? I am my world.
And ....why do I get so scared of changing my life, reaching beyond the comfortable little world I've created for myself in this apartment?
Ooooh, that's a deep thought for tonight. Not sure I'm ready to go that far yet.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them