Oh where to begin? I know I haven't been doing a whole lot of posting this year. I guess I've really just become consumed with lots of other distractions (er, FB games...) and haven't felt the desire to keep this active. I like telling people I have a blog though...I like having it. Now if only I would keep up with 'eh?
I am in a good place...life is good. And for a change, I am not sad about the holidays, like I usually am. I am throwing myself into them this year and saying "WTF, why not?" (And Thanksgiving was bearable because I got fed Turkey day food at work!) Instead of moping around and feeling like I'm not part of anything and keeping myself isolated, I'm embracing all the cheesy, wonderful things about it.
It started because R decided to also really jump on the wagon since K really digs it and is making the house a festive atmosphere. There is even a tree! A real tree. And we're gonna exchange presents! I've already done a ton of shopping (though admittedly as in years past, Merry Christmas to ME too, big time!!!)
R and K are in a way, my family too. And I love that I'm not alone. Living here with them has been a good thing.
(I am still eventually going to move out because I want to be back on a busline. And closer to the city. And frankly, in St. Paul. But for now I'm where I'm supposed (?) to be.)
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Things with B are both equally good and terrible. We've become even more intimate than we were before yet thoughts still buzz around in my brain that a sane person would pay attention to but I'm continuing to choose to purposely ignore them.
*Sigh*
He's been really great at making time to see me at least once a week for the last couple of months. I do think he knew it really could have ended. He's a lucky son of a bitch and he's been reminded that he needs to appreciate that.
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Jason finally went ahead and moved to a warmer climate. He gave CA & AZ a look but has ended up in TX since he's got guaranteed work down there.
Good for him. I hope he finally finds some happiness.
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Hmm, what else? The mind is drawing a blank so I supposed I'll just stop here then.
And forward we go.
P.S. Oh! The girl(s) are just fine, it was just lymph nodes like my Dr. thought. Yahoo!
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them