Having another lazy day, so far. Yesterday, my Saturday, was a total ME day. I even colored my hair. It's now a dark brown AND no more grays! And I put some polish on my short little nails so now my hands look a little more fun/interesting.
Tonight is my "birthday" w/B. I'm trying not to have too high of expectations because we'll be getting together a bit later than we normally do but I'm sure he'll give me a wonderful night.
So, you're wondering how the interview went the other day? On the one hand, I think fine. It helped that we knew each other (a bit) with my having worked there before, on the other, I couldn't stop myself from talking about some of the terrible things about my current job. I'm not sure I wasn't trying to subconsciously sabotage myself...I realized a few years ago that I do have self-sabotage tendencies. Fear of success is real. Crazy but true.
I had forgotten to ask about when they would be making a decision AND what the hourly rate is, so I sent the manager an email and his reply was that they hope to make a decision in the next couple of weeks AND that the hourly rate would be discussed in the second round of interviews.
WTF? Second fucking round? The first round was tough enough AND I got a fucking ticket for an expired meter of $33!
So I guess it'll be a good sign if I get a 2nd interview but still, geez louise.
See that's the thing, I've never really understood what it is they want because being hard-working and doing a good job doesn't seem to be enough.
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Sigh.
I watched "Before Sunrise" and "Before Sunset" again last night and I was reminded that if I don't get the job, well, at least I have the current one with those fabulous flight benefits. I want to get back to England and Amsterdam (and get to Vienna and Prague and...and...and...) And it's a hell of a lot cheaper if I stay w/the current place. Even if I'm going to continue to stay surrounded by a bunch of great, but miserable people.
So anyway, it's after 4pm already and I've not gotten a whole lot accomplished for the day except eating breakfast/having coffee.
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Sunday is fast approaching. I can't believe after all of the big build up to it, that it's now really almost here. 40. Me. 40. How the hell did that happen? And what do I have to show for my life? Oh don't go there Sam. You've got a LOT to be very thankful for and so what if you don't have a house or a big fancy career or a husband and/or kids? You're path is a different one from that and it's perfectly fine, wonderful, good.
There's something to be said for having a life that works for you and isn't full of doing things/being someone that someone else thinks you should be.
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Well, I think this is all I'm gonna say right now.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them