Love

The hot topic of the day is love. With Valentine's Day quickly approaching, I thought it was time to write a little bit more about my favorite subject. I don't think I had this blog last year at this time (yeah, that's right, my 1 year anniversary is at the end of this month) and so didn't write about last years "celebration" and/or thoughts on the topic...

I know it's an overblown commercial holiday but I love it, especially the past few years now that I have had a real valentine.

For so many years I didn't have one and wanted one. I have had very few boyfriends and B was the first one who gave me a romantic valentines day. I keep dreaming and fantasizing about how I think romance ought to be and I know there are so many facets, levels and layers to it that count too. The reality is sooooooo much better.

And there is a lot to be said for being with someone you can be yourself with in all of your glorious moods. Not only do I have a few awesome friends and a roomfriend (new word...a roommate who is a friend or do I prefer friendmate?) who allow me that, but I've got this man in my life who really is doing his best to juggle a full life and still find ways to make me feel special, loved and wanted.

Our evening started kind of late but the time we had was perfect for us. An indoor picnic, sexy underwear (green is the new black! ;) ) and amazing cards exchanged (OK, his to me was amazing, mine for him was merely meh). Simple but sweet and passionate.

OK, enough of THAT talk/subject...

There have been other fantastic things the past 7 days...starting with last Thursday when I got together with Ryan for a very spur of the moment breakfast/lunch and movie ("When in Rome"...cute. B+) and then that night had a date w/B...and another week of work survived.

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So I've thinking that I need to do something to shake up my life from it's usual routine so Jen the Fabulous (Note: she from now on will always be referred to as "the fabulous" :) ) has got me kinda excited about this women's improv class thingy at Brave New Workshop that starts on Feb. 27th and is from 10am to Noon.

"All Women Everyday 1 now available!
In this fun, all women, class you will learn the building blocks of improvisation. Discover ways to be more present in everyday conversation and cultivate your creativity in this perfect girl's night out of laughter, discussion and discovery. Lauren Anderson, Brave New Workshop main stage favorite, will get you on your feet and laughing and loving improvisation, and will invite guest artists to share their love and insight into the world of improvisation.

Saturdays: 10:00am - 12:00pm beginning Feb. 27th.
Class will run for 8 weeks..."

Doesn't that sound awesome????

Now the thing is I'd have to get up a couple of hours even earlier than I'm having to now on Saturday mornings AND go to work afterward. But dammit, it sounds exciting and as long as my pockets can't keep money in them, I might as well us the money for something fun and different. (Ah, living in the now. A blessing and a curse)

I'm actually kind of terrified of what might be required of me in terms of putting myself "out there", with strangers, but I'm also exhilarated by the thought too. I go on and on about how comfortable I've become with my size but I sure don't act like it sometimes.

So we'll see...the fabulous made a good suggestion that I could maybe even confirm with the teacher ahead of time that I may duck out a few minutes early to make sure that I make it to work on time. No flexing for me on Saturdays. But that's not the worse thing in the world as I was reminded today as it was the first time I hadn't flexed in a couple of weeks...

Lots of people manage to juggle more than one significant thing at a time don't they? the fabulous is a good example of that...and have I mentioned just HOW fabulous fabulous is? Her life has changed significantly recently and she keeps going. I'm learning a lot about self-confidence and bravery from her.

Ahhh, my heart is so full of love for the people in my life. I'm so freakin' lucky.

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Next week ought to be fun...on Wednesday I'm flying my parent's down to FL (they get higher boarding priority with me traveling with them and after the disaster of last years outbound flight down there, I'm gonna try to make this year better) then turning around and flying back that afternoon. Then the following week I'll go down and "get them" and fly 'em back. They rarely take advantage of their flight benefits and have done a lot for me, so this the least I can do...

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Yesterday it was also 3 weeks since my baby left me. Man, I miss him. Jenn says she's done with the portrait and I should be receiving it tomorrow, Saturday or thereabouts. I'm sure I'm gonna cry again. And that's OK.

Well...so I think this is about all for now.

Onward. With heart-shaped bubble over my head and a small bounce in my step.