What's It All About?


"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates

While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.

You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.

"Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase." MLK

Friday, October 10, 2025

October Symphony

Notes written/notepad that belong here. 

Now that I’ve embraced posting via mobile apps, I’ll be able to post more. 

I’ve got lots of stuff to document. Then again, will I really want to reread all of this? Not really. In the meantime, for my small devoted audience…

 Notes: 

Notes 1 - Assault

⁃ I think I left my body because I don’t even wanna think about the pain I was feeling from getting that beating. I mean, I still can’t even believe it really happened. And here I am just trying to do the right thing and get some Workmen’s Comp. from my company, but they just are being assholes about it. 

⁃ I’m glad I have a lawyer! 

And…

Note - 2 - D also stands for Done

Well D disappeared for about 3 days and then said needs slow things down, take a break. Alrighty then. I know what that means. 

I got what I needed out of him and I was really struggling with how to move forward. I mean we had fun. Another “meh” experience sex-wise but at least I finally got fucked. In spite of that, it was a good experience -music! but yeah, I feel OK about it. 

He’ll just be another guy on Facebook that I’ve been with, but we didn’t end up together. I’ve got a few of those now. I wonder if I should worry about that? I don’t know.

And B popped back into the picture briefly. (Yeah you did) 

☯️☯️

Am I really accepting all of that? So…coldly

Yeah, I’ve already been battered physically and emotionally and these are just more bruises on my soul. 

Back to life as I know it as a single woman. 

Oh and more sucky things

-SD has cancer and prognosis isn’t great. 

-R in hospital, serious diabetes issue - sent him message that if he wants to have a pity party for 2 that we could FT tonight and be miserable and complain together to get it out of our systems. We’ll see if that happens. I pretty much just did that in this post.  
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Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!

Things I'm grateful for everyday....

- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)

Current Favorite Quotes

“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain

(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)

7-25-07

1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.

Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)

  • 1. No one can bring your life to you
  • 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
  • 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
  • 4. Every choice means giving up something different
  • 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
  • 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
  • 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
  • 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
  • 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them