What's It All About?


"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates

While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.

You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.

"Take the first step in faith. You don't have to see the whole staircase." MLK

Monday, April 10, 2023

Heartstopper

I wonder if there had been such a thing, back when I was watching "Friends" of watching reaction videos on YouTube? If there had been, would I have been as obsessed about a TV show like I am, now?

Heartstopper. Netflix. April 2022. Season 1. 

I've watched the series itself at least a dozen times in the last year. Actually not quite a year. It was released in April 2022 and I didn't get around to watching it until I heard "Tyler and Todd" (YouTubers) mentioned it (and just in passing) back in, May 2022.

And I've now watched it with about a dozen other people.  

It's the go-to these days when I'm feeling sad. 

Heartstopper. 

A wonderful world created by a writer named Alice Oseman. I don't think she could have imagined that some of her best work would have such a huge impact on me and how I feel about my relationship with B. 

This show, about 2 young men, becoming best friends and then falling in love with each other. 

Well now that I put it like that, of course it's affected me. I'm a sucker for a good romance.

I love everything about the show. The actors chosen for their roles and the job they're doing with it, the writing, the setting, the time. The progression of the story. The choices made. 

It may have been written for the LGBTQIA+ audience but it hits hard at that young person, wondering if the person you like likes you back and all of the nervousness and sweetness of that time of life. 

And some of the lines that hit me the hardest;



"...make him feel a little bit crap about himself." 

If I'm not going to get to be with the man I love and somehow we still continue, I'm going to keep feeling a little bit like crap...and not good enough. 

and...the other one that hits close to the heart, 

    


"It's all worth it to be with you." 

I wonder what life would be like if he had never married her but instead married me. 

That would be a story to tell! Though our story is already something worthy of a novel. 

But big, long love stories are what my family does. Mom and Pop. J and E. Me and B. 

At the end of the day, I just want him coming home to ME every night. 
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Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!

Things I'm grateful for everyday....

- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)

Current Favorite Quotes

“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain

(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)

7-25-07

1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.

Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)

  • 1. No one can bring your life to you
  • 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
  • 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
  • 4. Every choice means giving up something different
  • 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
  • 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
  • 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
  • 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
  • 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them