And the constant war between love and hate between myself and,,,
Food (What? You thought I was going to say something else?)
Today, Thanksgiving 2013 and I'm taking it really easy. About a week and half ago, I fell and banged up my leg pretty bad. It's slow going healing-wise and today I made the decision to stay off my leg as much as possible.
That meant, not going to Boston Market to pick up lunch for the family and have lunch together. My brother hadn't planned on spending time with the family anyway ....it's just another day to them and he was going over to spend time at his friend D's.
So as he was heading out in the afternoon, I asked him if he would bring me something to eat. I just wanted to have food I didn't cook. He stopped at Cub Foods and got me a chicken dinner from the deli. And cheesecake. Pumpkin cheesecake.
And that is where the love is...not only being grateful my brother is a good guy and helps me out every once in awhile but that I love eating already prepared foods. I love not making it myself.
The hate (maybe not quite hate) is because I know eating these kinds of foods, for the most part, are not the healthiest options for me (aka they're not vegetables, nor whole grains, nor fruit, etc.)
And while I was eating, I thought to myself "damn, I really love food."
But you know what? Instead of obsessing over the topic of eating/food/self-worth/etc. I'm going to choose to focus on other things right now.
In fact, I'm going to stop writing and I'm going to continue the Thanksgiving holiday tradition I started with myself a few years ago and watch "Home for the Holidays" with Holly Hunter, Dylan McDermott & Robert Downey Jr.
I love this movie. And the older I get the more I appreciate it and can relate to it. It's got a character who has had some setbacks, is not perfect and who has a life that's a little out of control. A character who has a family that is full of crazies that you love anyway and it has some very funny moments. And of course there's a love story too. (You know I'm a sucker for a good love story.)
And a really great soundtrack. My favorite being at the end..."The Very Thought of You" by the late great Nat King Cole.
And I want to dedicate it to a very special man...a man who loves me and makes me feel so alive and happy when we're together.
that's something I'm very thankful for right now.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them