So I'm all over the place in terms of where I'm going next. Looking at places of my own. Looking at renting from someone again. Looking at living in a duplex/fourplex. Looking at other apartment buildings. Looking at living in an another apartment I can't really afford and living poor (though I really think I'm convinced this time that I shouldn't do that again) or living somewhere that is more than 1 bus away from work.
I also need to think about where I'll end up with the credit I have. (Hence the title of this post.)
Is it greedy of me to want to live on 1 busline, at an affordable rate, in a place that is also ...nice?
Maybe not. This is my future home I'm thinking about. Will it be possible that I will find a place that I won't have to move from -ever again?
I am probably putting too much pressure on myself to find a place that I'll never move from again aren't I?
Me. Who doesn't really think about the future beyond the next month or so...I'm obsessing over finding a place that I'm not going to want to move away from for a very very very long time, if ever.
Maybe I need to not hate moving.
I mean, what's the big deal? I've done it a million times. And each
time, I still end up with less stuff than I had before...the
minimalist in me likes that. Likes that a lot.
At the end of the day no matter where I end up, there I am.
What I really should be thinking about is the life I envision for myself and while where I hang my hat plays a big part in that, it shouldn't be the be-all/end-all of it.
My goals for life need to include getting out of debt. Getting some savings started and living debt-free.
I was telling a friend that I can't even imagine what a life where I'm not deprived and just surviving feels like. It seems like all of my adult life has seen me living paycheck to paycheck and it sucks.
Ah, growing up is kind of a bitch sometimes.
And growing up can't happen if I don't find a place to live that is actually within a realistic budget.
So it's time to experience the alternative... live somewhere I can actually afford. Hmm, what a concept.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them