I’d forgotten
how having a home of one’s own means upkeep…keep it tidy. I take great
pride and satisfaction from living in a fairly clean environment but I don’t
want to put a lot of effort into which means keeping up with things….
So that is
really what weekends are about right now. Not going out and drinking to the wee
hours. Not seeing the latest movie. Not dining at the latest hot spot. Nope,
just doing laundry, unloading/loading the dishwasher, wiping off the counters
and putting things away where they belong (though I’m still figuring out the
best places for things.)
And my new
reality is no internet access outside of the limited amount I get with my cell
phone.
A couple of
my co-workers are fond of saying “put your big girl panties on” and they’re
right…that is what I have to do.
The reality
is that I can’t afford that …luxury right now and while it’s killing me, I have
other financial obligations that must be met. And I’ve learned very very
painful financial lessons about not meeting your financial obligations.
And I’ll
admit, if I do indeed go to Vegas for my birthday (why Vegas? Free hotel room
courtesy of Michelle, my favorite work friend and …why not Vegas?) I want to be
able to have a wee bit of spending money. That’s coming up week after next.
In a perfect
world, I could have it, do it all, but that is not my world.
I won’t lie,
I miss internet access something awful…and I took it for granted when I had
it…so I’m just going to take the opportunity to catch up on movies –even if
they’re old/older and my reading. (And I’ve got a new neighborhood to explore
don’t I?)
I’m very
fortunate in that a woman at work gave me a TV with a built in VCR –that
works!!!! And I’ve got a bunch of movies to watch that I will hopefully
convince my brother to pick up for me from Ryan’s.
And in the
meantime, I’ve got co-workers lending me movies. And I can borrow some from my
parents. (See this is why you hang on to movies!) How awesome is that?
So here I am.
Saturday afternoon, taking a break and also waiting for groceries to get
delivered…granted maybe they’re just a bit more expensive than I might get at
Target or Cub but the convenience is worth it. I’m being practical this time
and buying stuff that I will have to make –but that will also be great as
leftovers to take to work for lunch.
It’s my
weakness to just buy lunch at work in the cafeteria. I’m a regular. They know
what I usually get…the sandwich guy has finally
begun to know what I like (chicken salad on a white hoagie with romaine (not
iceberg) lettuce and just 2 slices of tomato) …the prices aren’t …terrible, but
they’re not great either.
More reality
that I need to deal with….bringing my lunch should help me save some money that
I can put toward bills.
*Sigh*
What is sad
is that I don’t remember the last time I felt like this…determined to have paid
off as many bills as I could so that I don’t have these things hanging over my
head. I want to be able to live simply and comfortably.
OK, so I
think those are all of the brilliant thoughts I’ve got for now.
More stuff to
do around the house…
Oh joy.
