So here it is. This is my life.
I don't know why I'm making such a big deal about having a new place. Lots of people have a new place and don't think it means more than just that.
I guess I just want it to represent more than just a new address.
...it's starting out fairly close to the "beginning" with a bang...I wasn't home for 2 weeks in the first 30 days (or so) so it hasn't started to feel quite home yet.
and Mom is back in the hospital...same place and thankfully I'm a lot closer now. I'm not freaking out ...yet. She went in Friday night with a fever of 103 and the shakes & shivers. But she's been up for visitors starting Saturday late afternoon...We really think...hope she's going to be OK. She's on antibiotics...they thought maybe pneumonia but now it may be some form of cellulitis (sp?) . . .she picked up something somewhere...and I'm afraid from swimming. That would suck if she had to reduce or stop doing that because it's one of the few physical activities she can do and actually enjoys.
Tonight - a potential aid/solution...swim shoes. I'm going to look into those after I've finished this up.
She has to be OK. The alternative is unacceptable. Is that childish of me? You bet. But when it comes to our parent's mortality, why do we have to be mature about it? It's enough that we eventually see them as flawed human beings, just being who they are as individuals and not as "superheroes" or only "Mom and Pop."
So now...time to distract myself from thinking about anything happening to my mother anytime within the next decade...at minimum.
*Sigh*
Every once in a while I like to totally self-indulge in analyzing myself...you know, the whole "who am I?" thing.
Things about Me...2012.
1. Pizza -all kinds....frozen, bad frozen, fresh, Dominos, gourmet...doesn't matter...is my new favorite "food". I used to say anything related to breakfast.
2. I eat more sweet things now. Used to be that I was only a salty snack/treat freak.
3. I'm not as opposed to trying spicier things.
4. I like to cook more...and use fresh ingredients...but yet still refuse to give up "bad" foods.
OK, should I worry this is all related to food so far?
Nah. I've decided to redevelop my relationship with it. Appreciate it for what it is...nourishment for the one and only body I've been given and not let my love and passion for it control me.
*Yawn*
I LOVE LOVE LOVE my apartment. I'm so happy I could make this work (with thanks to a few people)....and now time to put myself to bed.
After looking up swim shoe info. that is. :P
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them