It seems a little bit...petty...to say that moving is a time when you find out who your true friends are.
R was my rock. I couldn't have done this without him, literally.
But now it's done and I don't think my body will ever recover. I had to find energy and strength I didn't know I have. And I truly had to "suck it up" as a friend is fond of saying.
Sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do don't you?
Anyway, so here I am. Spent my first night in my new home last night. Managed to eek out enough motivation at the end of the night to make up the bed and take a shower.
Then this morning, Pop was kind enough to come down & help me with replacing the shower head with my handheld one. And then get the pictures and mirrors out of the car before I took her out to work to park her there (I'm reminded, parking downtown St. Paul can suck.) and then experience the joys of public transportation in going home.
So here I am, sitting on the loveseat, with the windows open and looking out at the trees in the park and just thinking it all still seems...unreal. This really, finally happened. It's not just something that I can't wait for to happen. It's not just a crazy dream.
*Sigh*
I've got so so much to do still but am too pooped to do anything but relax right now.
But let me tell you...I am totally getting a kick out of setting up MY home. And I'm never moving again!!!! If I can help it.
Downtown St. Paul is a bit quieter on Sunday afternoons. I like that. It was kind of loud last night, but that was out in the streets, not in the building. It's been quiet in the building so far...haven't heard or met any of my neighbors yet. Well, beyond saying hello that is. The building has a lot of dogs though...that much I can tell. But thankfully I don't think they are in the apartments around me.
Hmm, the thought of taking a nap just floated through my mind...maybe. I don't know. I know there is no hurry to unpack & settle in but yet there is.
I guess I don't know what exactly would change with this move yet I know everything has. I'm back in the city, surrounded by life and noise. I just hope I venture out, meet people because I don't want to find myself feeling lonely even though I'm not really alone with all of this...life around me.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them