Well actually it's only 2am. I should be thinking of winding things down -especially after the disaster going to bed last night was. Lights out at 3am and I didn't fall asleep 'til around 5...5:30! I was NOT a happy camper about that. Especially since I'm trying to get over the first cold I've had in god knows how long. (Taking a daily vitamin WORKS when you actually take the bloody thing DAILY!)
Oh what an exciting couple of weeks it's been.
* Court date #2 last week - got myself a public defender and thank god because the prosecutor wanted/wants to suspend my driver's license. Now granted, I did the crime but I've made good! And I'll never do it again! And I will prove to them that I have car insurance as often as they want for as long as they want! So there is yet another day to go back to court. Let's hope it's the last time. (Worst case scenario they do suspend it but maybe I get a "work" one only? And it would only be for 6 months? The PD thinks it really shouldn't come down to that though....please please let him be right!)
* Pop lost his job. They let him go. Supposedly trumped up charges of some sort and they've been gunning for him for awhile and finally had their ammunition. He's understandably angry and bitter. I just hope he does find some part-time work ...shit, I keep forgetting to see if the airline has anything for him!... and that along with the social security he can now apply for, they should be OK and not have to move (again) to more affordable housing. They have the nicest place they've ever had and moving is so stressful.
* Hmmm, still thinking about running off to Nice for a few days but we'll just have to see how it goes. I'll find out my new shifts tomorrow and I'll have to see how it all could work with the budget. Missing a couple days of work this week didn't help since I'm officially out of sick time until next month. Oh well. It's all about keeping my expenses down to a minimum. The cell phone is back under control and that's big.
And if Troy would both give me some other work AND pay me for the last job I did for him, that will help. Granted, I need to get my shit together and find a better way to organize the lists he sends me and make sure I don't delete ANY of the emails! I'm feeling like an idiot because I couldn't give him some information he asked for the other day (I'm also feeling afraid that with how long it took me to do the last one, combined with that I'm not following through with sending back a final list of who got what, that he's going to think he's made a mistake in asking me to help him with this stuff. Oh well. I can only wait and see if he gives me any more work. I hope he does or I need to make sure he gets all of his supplies back so they aren't just laying around taking up space (or maybe one of these days I'll actually organize them properly!))
*Sigh*
* Have a doctor appointment day after tomorrow at fucking o'dark early (or whatever you call it when it's the middle of the night for a night owl like me) I will be tempted to just stay up all night but that staying up all hours of the "night" crap is what contributes to my getting a cold. I will also be tempted to cancel but it's for a physical and to get a new refill for the "happy" pills so I guess I better just get my ass up early. Right-o.
* On a happier note, the new living situation is going well. We're settling in and getting used to each other lifestyles, schedules and routines. I am really happy I'm here and I hope Ryan is too.
* My dearest old friend Diane turned 40 this past weekend and I'm really happy for her. She may be worried about that big 4-0 like the rest of us but it's actually really not so bad...so far.
Well, I think that's all I'll get into tonight.
Onward. Just...onward.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them