Nope, not gonna be easy money

It's gonna take organization, creativity and consistency to do the job and the compensation is fair.

I'm so excited and happy about this opportunity to work for/with Troy that it really has me thinking about the full-time job and if I can bear to stick with it.

I posted this status on FB the other day..."would almost rather poke my eyes out with a sharp stick that go to work "tomorrow" (saturday)"

and it's true.

While some of the callers are great ...and I get a kick out of selling the higher and/or premium cabin fares, overall the job feels like a heavy weight on my shoulders. And most of the pressure is called "stats". Worrying about them everyday, obsessing over them. You wouldn't think it would be so hard to maintain a decent amount of time being available for phone calls but it is. I'm also bored and so so tired of the same goddamn questions..."how many miles do I have", etc. Yet I still just want to be able to help as many as can w/out the pressure to get them off the phone or sell them on some damn credit card.

I've been saying that I'm burning out. I give 110% percent and it's catching up with me. But in thinking about looking for a new job (here we go again) there still is the reality that in this economy, with all of the other competition out there, that finding a new FT job that rewards good customer service w/out the pressure of the call center life may just be a dream.

So I am going to allow myself to take as much PTO as I want and focus on doing a good and productive job for Troy and have the airline job as just something I do to keep flight benefits. I'll go, do my thing and just get through the shift one hour at a time.

Did I mention how excited I am about what I'm going to be doing? I'll be his marketing assistant and responsible for the mailings of everything from direct mail letters, cards, gifts and invites to events. I can't help but feel a wee bit ...guilty about taking work away from maybe someone else who A. needs a job and B. has more experience in the field. I won't lie. I'm rusty on word processing programs, spreadsheets and mail merges but I am finding lots of help via that oh so wonderful search engine that is "Google"!

And I know that I deserve this opportunity and I WILL shine and help him become a lean, mean, organized, VP who stands out from the crowd. It's like all of this has awakened that part of me that enjoys being a big fish in a small pond. Being important and OMG, needed! Strangely I don't get that feeling from Delta. Even when there are a million calls on hold because hundreds of flights are canceled due to weather, I don't feel needed in that job. I'm merely a cog in the wheel. One of hundreds. The lowest on the totem pole.

Does Troy have any idea of the gift that he's giving me, just to feel this good about working a job? I'm going to have to do my best not to gush or thank him too much. I do have a tendency to go on a bit don't I? I guess I just feel so damn lucky.

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Speaking of lucky...the tax refund gods were smiling on me this year. I've already filed AND gotten both my federal and state refunds back. And they were halfway decent amounts to boot! Goodbye $200+ Dr. bill that's been hanging over my head since last summer! And I'm pretty much caught up w/the Fabulous on rent & utilities and for sure will be back on track by the time I move next month (crikey! just a little over a month left here...) The guy I was in the accident with is paid off. That will help I'm sure when I go to court to deal with the consequences of my actions (or lack of action!) ...yeah, I'm gonna have to go to court after all. I thought that might be the case but then thought differently but now it's been confirmed. Am just waiting for the summons...

We're getting some money from profit sharing at the end of the month and I will sock that away toward my fines/ticket. I hope that by paying the fine in full and being very humble and this being my first offense that they won't take my license away or worse, throw me in jail! I should be more nervous and/or worried but I just can't think about that right now. I will just have to deal with it when it all happens. Jason said that if he wasn't working or on a job when my court date rolls around that he'd go with me. Thank god. This is going to be scary enough as it is. (I guess I better have a back-up in case he's not available since I feel that way...any volunteers?)

In spite of that, I feel lucky! I finally got around to dealing with finding a better rate for my car insurance and found way better...and I solemnly swear will never ever ever be without it again as long as I'm driving a car and will hopefully never have to go through all this shit again.

While I mostly paid bills, I did treat myself to a couple of things with the tax money...new underwear, a skirt and a shirt. I may have splurged a bit on the skirt but it's a beautiful long black sweater skirt...and while I already have several other black skirts, this one is "just right"...

OK, so it's like going on 3am and by the time I proof/edit this I'm sure it'll be after 3 so I'm going to just stop here for tonight.

More to come!