So still dealing with this sucky cold. Between my ears being plugged up (and then when I blow my nose they pop and crackle and hurt :( ) and the sore, scratchy (but ubersexy!) voice, I'm ready to just crawl under the covers and never come out.
If only I hadn't used up all of my opportunities to call in sick at work. I've had to go in, no if's, and's, or but's about it. Fuck. (I'm not going to even bore you with the details on the attendance policy at work and why it's come to this...)
Thankfully it was slow enough on Friday and tonight that they "put the clock up" and I could leave early. Now if only I'd be a good girl and try to go to sleep earlier than the usual time...but we all know what a joke that is...tossing, turning and mind racing with a million thoughts keeps the sandman at bay.
So it's Labor Day Weekend and I'm gonna be laying low for the rest of it. I did get tomorrow off and I'm gonna spend it not talking to anyone and resting up my voice. Sucks that this holiday won't be as fun as it could be (spending it w/friends) but I gotta get over this thing.
Oh, did I mention we bid for new shifts last Monday? I will have the same hours, 2-10:30pm but now with Thursday and Fridays off. Woo hoo! It just seemed the best combo that would allow me to see B, work the occasional shift for the SPCO AND spend time with my lovely, dear, patient friends.
That new schedule won't begin until the weekend of the 12th...it's actually going to be a crazy month schedule-wise 'cause I'm actually supposed to have that weekend off because I'll start training on the 14th for the reservation system that Delta uses...so I'll have the 12th/13th off, then training M-F that week from 2:30-11pm, then another weekend off, then on-the-job usage of the new system the following week and then back to normal the week after that...it's enough to make the head spin. It should be fun having some actual real weekend days off ...it's been a long time since that's happened.
So my brother was kind enough to bring over the lien release (from the car dealership where my mom got Suzette from) that I need in order to finally get the title transferred to me. It's about bloody time since I've had the car for about 2 years now! Ooops! (I didn't want to go over to their place to go get it 'cause I don't want to risk getting my mom sick. She's got enough physical problems without getting this bugger. (I'll have to just hope I didn't give anything to him...))
After he left, I went back to bed and as I was trying to fall back asleep I was thinking about my brother and how cool he is and that maybe I should write a bit about him.
He's 3 years older than me and also not married or has any kids. (Though a person really shouldn't be defined by those facts right? Right!) He's currently living with Mom/Pop due to not being able to find work. (Hey, anyone's company looking for truck drivers????) and it's been months. I feel for the guy and wish there was something I could do for him. But in the meantime, I'm kinda glad he's living with them because with my mom's health problems, I know he's been able to ease the burden on my Pop's shoulders for taking care of her and the household (Pop's been doing it all...cooking, cleaning, laundry...on top of working full-time.) (I'm a bad daughter and don't help them ever with anything... :( Oh, except flights!!!)
And is it just awful that I'm glad it's him and not me in that position? Yup. It's awful. I'll burn in hell for that thought (it's a joke my Pop likes to make...you fellow former JW's get it right?)
Anyhoo...he's never (and I mean NEVER) had a girlfriend and that does break my heart. He's a good guy. When we were growing up we had our share of fights but he always stuck up for me and would beat up those who picked on me. As a teenager he had terrible acne and so the girls didn't flock to him (oh how shallow youth can be) and as he got older and the acne improved...it just didn't happen. I think there have been girls he liked but it's never been reciprocated. I'm not sure why it's just never happened for him. Oh sure, he's got a temper (just like me...something we "got" from Pop) but it only comes out when life deals him a crappy blow ...which seems to happen to him more than you would believe....but yet he keeps on keepin' on. (I will always love "Joe Dirt" for many reasons including the usage of that expression) and putting one foot in front of the other. He doesn't give in to depression like I do/have done. It's curious how we're so different in that I've done the therapy/happy pill thing and he hasn't when we had the same childhood. (Then again, not all of what's messed me up happened in childhood...)
I could write lots more about him but will stop for now and move on to other topics like...?
Maybe I really don't have much more to say right now so maybe I'll just stop this here.
Ciao for now.
Musings from a big and beautiful sometimes "drama queen" on her current state of existence
What's It All About?
"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates
While you’re here, in this time and in this space, you are beautiful and you are perfect.
You are right where you need to be to get to where you want to go, so start asking yourself where you want to go.
Noire
She'll be 2 years in 2 months! Time flies!
Things I'm grateful for everyday....
- My family
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
- My friends, old and new.
- A roof over my head.
- My computer & internet access
- Being employed (even if I don't always like things about my job)
- The public library and the joy of borrowing books with/on/for my Kindle
- That I can walk on two legs, use 2 arms/hands, have ten fingers/toes, can see and hear, etc. (uh, no offense to anyone who is physically challenged)
- Other people's creativity and efforts
- The love of a good man (he IS good)
Current Favorite Quotes
“Be content with what you have, rejoice in the way things are. When you realize there is nothing lacking, the whole world belongs to you.” - Lao Tzu
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
"The privilege of a lifetime is to be who you are." ~ Joseph Campbell
"Reflect upon your present blessings, of which every man has plenty; not on your past misfortunes, of which all men have some." ~ Charles Dickens
"We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy. The amount of work is the same." -Carlos Castañeda
"..there’s something lovely about knowing that when it’s right, you really know it’s right because you’ve already been through all the wrong." ~ Sade
"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." ~ Theodor Geisel (Dr. Seuss)
"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." —Mark Twain
(This bit not so much as a quote but somethings I wrote down that I want to keep and this looks like a good place to do it)
7-25-07
1. Almost everything comes from almost nothing.
2. The best way to predict your future is to create it.
3. Leap and the net will appear.
Facts of Life (per Sonya Friedman)
- 1. No one can bring your life to you
- 2. No matter what you do, someone important isn't going to like it
- 3. Though painful, rejection won't kill you - it may even lead to growth
- 4. Every choice means giving up something different
- 5. Some people aren't capable of giving you what you're trying to get from them
- 6. The way you treat yourself sets the standard for others
- 7. There are no quick fixes that can permanently change your life
- 8. Life is on a rheostat, not an on/off switch
- 9. Some problems cannot be solved - but you can make peace with them